paranoid.

Christmas is on its way.I guess this year's christmas would be just the same.shopping spree,presents,family gathering and wine.I'm not really sure whether I want christmas's arrival or not.maybe I'm just paranoid to move on,yknow.Am I just paranoid for the new year,new stuff,new faces?I can't be sure,really.

I don't really wanna move on.I guess.I wanna stay where I am.I don't wanna be lost.It's hard to hold on to something,even though I tried my very best.confusions came and boomz,everything became a big fat mess.AHH awfulness.

I wanna see the same faces.I wanna meet the same person.but I don't think I could,because I didn't achieve as much as they do.yes,I didn't.It seems a little bit helpless but what else can I do?I'll just pray hard,I guess.HAH.

paranoid.

I want roses for this christmas.

my new year's resolution will be out tomorrow.A little bit too early eh?nah.hahaha.

on christmas night,I want my bed to be like this.can you hear me?